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A Death In The Family

from Red Shift EP by Diaphane

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I've gone back and forth many times over the last almost 2 years about whether I would put this song out, but I've set on finally doing it. It's dedicated my aunt Stacey, who lost her life to cancer in the summer of 2016. I wrote it in the week after she passed while I was overseas, as it was my only way of really coping with the loss away from my family and everyone close to me. She was always hugely supportive of me and all my musical endeavors, always interested to hear what I was working on and encouraging me, and besides that was just one of the kindest and loving people I knew. She gave so much of herself to her family and loved ones, and was always somebody I really admired. Writing this was a hugely cathartic thing for me, and I've struggled with whether it was right of me to put something out like this which is so personal, so much an example of me making art for me, for the purpose of healing, but I've found over the last few years that when I've performed it, I've often had people come to me afterwards and tell me how it reminded them of certain losses they had experienced, and that it was very cathartic for them to hear it and feel that they were not alone in their experience of deep and sudden loss.
So with all of that in mind, I'm going to be releasing my EP as pay-what-you-wish, and I will donate all of the money I make from it over the weekend to cancer research. I hope that my Uncle Ken and his family will take this as a fitting memorial to her and her legacy of selflessness and compassion. Love and miss you aunt Stace.

lyrics

Woke up this morning not quite sober
quite hungover like a tired lover
do not come over, I'm not ready yet

Last night I drank away all my trouble
got myself seeing double
I know I'm out of touch but don't fill me in

It's been a long week
a death in the family, emotional atrophy
mother I miss you, I wish you were close to me
explain how such a bright flame could just fade away
bullshit people like to say, at least she's not in pain
can the family say the same?
can the family say the same?
can it stay the same

You burnt out while I was out
I left home without a doubt
I'd see you in 4 weeks time, or thereabouts

I can't remember your favorite song
so I hope this one don't come off wrong
but I need some way to cope now that you're gone

I'll miss those nights when I'd stop by
for a kinder word from a twinkling smile
sadness never hung around your home too long

And lately I feel in need of that
a little smile a little laugh
to get my mind off of everyone that ain't comin back

It's been a long summer
I know I've got good friends who say that they love me
but do they know me like the ones that have left me?
does it even matter, does it even matter?
oh I wish I had answers but I've got only questions too
how could you leave me like this?
how could you leave me like this?
thought we were friends

credits

from Red Shift EP, released April 13, 2018
Written and recorded by Kyle Blessing
Mixed and mastered by Paul Marchesani

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Diaphane Rapid City, South Dakota

An indie-rock band currently in it's high concept phase, cosplaying as a country band for the gays and theys.

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